There are “ladies” who have a “here and now” perspective. Carol, Clarissa and Jane are those, and this is most clear for Clarissa, probably cause she was created in 2004. That’s not to say that they don’t consider what used to happen to me in their perspectives, but it’s like “I know that happened to ‘her’ (me).” That’s cause I still find it difficult to grasp that these are all “me”, even though rationally I know they are. They all have the same experiences and knowledge, cause I do. Yet mainly Clarissa uses her knowledge of what all happened, how I created the “system”, etc. in her perspective, but “from a distance”. That’s also what I know I created some “ladies” for: to pretend that I’m looking at events “from a distance”. You see, I have always had difficulty communicating about what’s happening to myself, and as a result, I’ve often created story characters that were very autobiographical. It however also works the other way round.
Other “ladies” sort of refer to situations of my life. They are still equally present, cause what happened at these moments has an impact upon what’s happening currently. Examples are the summer of 1998 and ninth grade. Some of them have perspectives that refer to the time they were last “active”, like Elena, but since she’s “active” now, too, she’s getting more and more a “here and now” perspective. Oh boy, this sounds crazy. Need a better explanation, but can’t think of any. Others were created cause the time I created them refers to another time, like the summer of 1998 and the summer of 2004 being so similar. So I created one who was 12-years-old like I had been in 1998 and who was allowed to deal with the problems that I should “get over”. Likewise, Milou is eight, and that’s partly cause of her (my) social/behavioural problems, but also partly cause of the year 1994 still being so carefree. She was probably created in 2004. I could see her as an Inner Child.
I have many ways of categorizing the “ladies”, I used to categorize them according to perspective vs. quality, but I can’t do that anymore, since I’ve acknowledged that having a go-getter perspective, for instance, is also a quality. Since they’re all parts of me, it’s not a “you should” perspective that Jane, Brenda, Clarissa or anyone else is holding. It’s not outside. If it were, I could dismiss all “ladies” and know exactly what to do and how to be. That realization has caused me to view the “ladies” as supportive (yes, all of them!) rather than annoying. This explanation has too often led people to think I created them for fun, but anything is better than to assume that I have daemonic voices in my head, or something like that.
Lately, I’ve gotten to make a distinction between the children/teenagers and the grown-ups. That’s to do nothing with how childlike they are. Carol’s anger can be quite childish, and still I consider her a grown-up. It’s not related to their ages either, although the grown-ups are all older than I am and all the children/teens are younger than I am. It’s about what moment they “refer” to, so whether they have a complete “here and now” pperspective. That’s not the same as when I created them, since I creatd Carol and Jane in 2001 and some of the “children” in 2004. It’s about what they refer to. You could see the children/teens as Inner Children, while the others are perspectives on my current situation and the associated qualities. They’re all important in my situation, since they all make up “me”, of course.