The occupational therapist was on holiday last week - argh! That meant that two of my four hours of OT were cancelled - the trainee mostly teaches me and he did on Wednesday as well, but on Thursday he was ill. It also meant I couldn’t ask her about “De Boomgaard” on Monday and still haven’t made a decision. I sometimes think I should go there cause the place is a better place to work on what I’m still lacking than my parents’ home - not so much cause I can’t practise cause I can when they’re at work, but cause they won’t let me make my own decisions and will constantly make vague judgments -, but on the other hand I fear that the home is only going to be negative and stereotypical. My counsellor, to whom I talked about it on Tuesday, said it might be an idea to ask some girls who’ve been living at “De Boomgaard”, but I don’t know these girls.
As I expressed my concerns about occupational therapy and mobility, my cunsellor wanted me to discuss my goals for the coming four weeks with the folks. Well, I still don’t have the stuff clearly and that’s partly cause I am horrible at expressing concerns appropriately and partly cause I sense that mainly the OT folks think that I’m going to “De Boomgaard” anyway and I feel uncomfortable when the OT’s trainee pages through a book called “daily living skills” and says there are only a few things we’ll still have to do. It makes me feel as if I shouldn’t nag. I want to see if I can speak to the folks on Monday, cause during class I just can’t get my concern across and besides, all my OT and mobility classes will be cancelled this week cause of some stupid trip I don’t feel like going on anyway. At least I think I have clear what I want people to know, but so I did last week and I had difficulty expressing it, but maybe this time it’ll go better.
